and im dying to sleep.
i need at least another.....
9238023470 hours of sleep.
and im very serious about it.
okays, wont do much updates.
for the past 3 or 4 nights,
i've just been drinking and drinking.
with the guys, at bark's & fisherman.
talked, crapped & made hell lot of noise.
stayed out till 4 plus 5 everyday.
went home, sleep and go out again.
go out, chill at dte. then drinking time.
ahhhh~!! pretty no life huh?? hah.
well, met johan on saturday.
had a talk. before that we fought.
but well, its common lahs.
its us, it has always been us.
talked and made peace ^^
thought i could be generous.
but i realised im not, at all.
trying to put up a front.
trying to act as though im fine.
when i know im not, at all.
everything came back with me crying.
with him comforting me..
with me finding myself cant let go..
and that isnt something i want...
i want him to be happy.
i want myself to be happy for his happiness.
but i know very clearly, i can never be.
exactly, what is love? <3
posted by babies- @ 11:26:00 PM
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